Y’know that sort of impending doom feeling that you get in your chest sometimes? That fills you with dread and you don’t even know what could go wrong but you know that it will? And you can already see your friends drifting away from you, there’s evidence everywhere, but you feel helpless to stop it because you’re so tired and it’s inevitable, anyway? There’s no permanence in this life at all, just adapting and hoping that the next wave of change won’t be too hard to wade through. That maybe, if you’re very very lucky, you’ll be left with some scraps of the friendships and projects you’ve built. 

Friends and jobs and fandoms and obsessions all burst into brilliant light and fade in a constant flow. It’s like life is a spider-web with moments of passion connecting all of the random threads together, but they give way to lulls for the next point of contact…

ughh

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I’m adding a ton of art blogs to help dilute my dash of sadness.

Y’know that sort of impending doom feeling that you get in your chest sometimes? That fills you with dread and you don’t even know what could go wrong but you know that it will? And you can already see your friends drifting away from you, there’s evidence everywhere, but you feel helpless to stop it because you’re so tired and it’s inevitable, anyway? There’s no permanence in this life at all, just adapting and hoping that the next wave of change won’t be too hard to wade through. That maybe, if you’re very very lucky, you’ll be left with some scraps of the friendships and projects you’ve built. 

Friends and jobs and fandoms and obsessions all burst into brilliant light and fade in a constant flow. It’s like life is a spider-web with moments of passion connecting all of the random threads together, but they give way to lulls for the next point of contact…

ughh

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I’m adding a ton of art blogs to help dilute my dash of sadness.

Also some other stuff:

  • My mom called me to tell me that she found Calico Critters at Shopko
  • We’re going to try to make her go see Zootopia with us on Saturday
  • I upped my step goal from 5,000 to 6,000 on fitbit and am hitting it consistently
  • I should be doing my comic right now… *cough*
  • I finished reading Miss Peregrine’s Home for Peculiar Children today, as recommended by Allie, and loved it. The only sad thing is that it’s a SERIES, aaarghh nooo why. I guess it’s also being made into a movie?! Which is awesome, but I want to use it for a comp for MY book…! 
  • Speaking of, only 17k left to go (how am I going to wrap this up?!)
  • I want to redo my website, but I think that’s largely because I’m supposed to be writing…

I guess that’s it.

Also some other stuff:

  • My mom called me to tell me that she found Calico Critters at Shopko
  • We’re going to try to make her go see Zootopia with us on Saturday
  • I upped my step goal from 5,000 to 6,000 on fitbit and am hitting it consistently
  • I should be doing my comic right now… *cough*
  • I finished reading Miss Peregrine’s Home for Peculiar Children today, as recommended by Allie, and loved it. The only sad thing is that it’s a SERIES, aaarghh nooo why. I guess it’s also being made into a movie?! Which is awesome, but I want to use it for a comp for MY book…! 
  • Speaking of, only 17k left to go (how am I going to wrap this up?!)
  • I want to redo my website, but I think that’s largely because I’m supposed to be writing…

I guess that’s it.

Are the wraps helping? Have you noticed a difference?

Yes and yes. I have been using just the calf wrap (thigh is coming later this week, I think) on my right leg, and it has stopped it from being in pain. It’s heavy, but my leg doesn’t feel swollen, if that makes sense. Like double bagging a grocery bag, almost. And coupled with lying on the couch with my feet up for a couple of evenings, and wrapping during the day, I’ve had to run to the bathroom every hour. Which is annoying, but great. 

My leg is much smaller than it was even just two days ago. It also hurts way less than my left leg, which has never been quite as bad as my right. I hope I can order more wraps soon.

And here I get long-winded about lymphedema. TL;DR: yes, the wrap is great.

The lymphatic system is like a bunch of roots that go all over your body. Its job is to circulate all of that water that humans are made of. Going in, it drops off proteins and nutrients, going out, it washes the debris and bacteria away. But, just like roots, if the lymphatic system is damaged (through injury or, in my case, radiation during cancer treatments), it stops being able to do its job so well. It delivers the fluid and then the fluid just sort of… sits there. And the longer this goes on, the more damaged it gets, the harder your heart works, the more your skin stretches… and pretty soon you can get lesions and super bad infections and blood clots, etc, because your muscles and skin are saturated with this dirty protein water. Super gross. 

It can’t be cured because they have no idea how to repair the tiny little fragile lymphatic veins. They’re working on it, sure, but right now, all we can do is drain and compress. 

Draining is done with massage (manual lymphatic drainage/total decongestive therapy) by a specialized therapist. You can also do dry brushing yourself, massaging the skin to get the fluid to go back toward your heart. Gravity helps, putting your legs above your heart for long periods of time. That makes your legs more squishy and stuff, but the skin is still stretched out and the lymphatic system is still just gonna drop more fluid down there. So you moisturize your skin to try to get it healthy, elastic, and tight again, and put on a compression wrap (or sock, if your leg is small enough) so that the lymph fluid CAN’T JUST SIT THERE; there’s NO ROOM. This enables you to sit at a desk and stuff and your leg is like ‘man there’s lots of pressure, just gonna push that lymph fluid away.’ 

Lather, rinse, repeat. Every day. For the rest of your life. 

Are the wraps helping? Have you noticed a difference?

Yes and yes. I have been using just the calf wrap (thigh is coming later this week, I think) on my right leg, and it has stopped it from being in pain. It’s heavy, but my leg doesn’t feel swollen, if that makes sense. Like double bagging a grocery bag, almost. And coupled with lying on the couch with my feet up for a couple of evenings, and wrapping during the day, I’ve had to run to the bathroom every hour. Which is annoying, but great. 

My leg is much smaller than it was even just two days ago. It also hurts way less than my left leg, which has never been quite as bad as my right. I hope I can order more wraps soon.

And here I get long-winded about lymphedema. TL;DR: yes, the wrap is great.

The lymphatic system is like a bunch of roots that go all over your body. Its job is to circulate all of that water that humans are made of. Going in, it drops off proteins and nutrients, going out, it washes the debris and bacteria away. But, just like roots, if the lymphatic system is damaged (through injury or, in my case, radiation during cancer treatments), it stops being able to do its job so well. It delivers the fluid and then the fluid just sort of… sits there. And the longer this goes on, the more damaged it gets, the harder your heart works, the more your skin stretches… and pretty soon you can get lesions and super bad infections and blood clots, etc, because your muscles and skin are saturated with this dirty protein water. Super gross. 

It can’t be cured because they have no idea how to repair the tiny little fragile lymphatic veins. They’re working on it, sure, but right now, all we can do is drain and compress. 

Draining is done with massage (manual lymphatic drainage/total decongestive therapy) by a specialized therapist. You can also do dry brushing yourself, massaging the skin to get the fluid to go back toward your heart. Gravity helps, putting your legs above your heart for long periods of time. That makes your legs more squishy and stuff, but the skin is still stretched out and the lymphatic system is still just gonna drop more fluid down there. So you moisturize your skin to try to get it healthy, elastic, and tight again, and put on a compression wrap (or sock, if your leg is small enough) so that the lymph fluid CAN’T JUST SIT THERE; there’s NO ROOM. This enables you to sit at a desk and stuff and your leg is like ‘man there’s lots of pressure, just gonna push that lymph fluid away.’ 

Lather, rinse, repeat. Every day. For the rest of your life. 

Re: Portfolio.

First of all, I emailed the guy who wrote the ‘Forget Style’ post to tell him how much you guys loved it. He wrote back and said he’s glad to hear it. 🙂 This is also the guy who is going to be critiquing my portfolio. I’m stoked.

Second, I researched a ton of paper last night, and then emailed my boss for his opinion. Dude knows his paper. I got into work today and he gave me his feedback and said that he put some leftover 12×18 100lb coverstock on my desk to look at. My boss is the best. I took home a sheet to play with and he was just like “okay!” 

Then tonight, I ordered two different reams of paper… a ream of 60lb and 80lb cover stock gloss paper (since cover tends to be thicker than text, and while I want this to be NICE, I have to be a little budget-conscious). I’m having them shipped to work, and they should be there in a week or two. Boss has already okayed my printing after hours on our industrial laserjet, since I don’t need that many prints for this project.

The binder that I have is a 24 page 11×14 Itoya Art Profolio, which isn’t as nice as some of the other books, but with my 40% off coupon at Michael’s, it was a quarter of the price of the nicer books. And while I could try to make my own book, I’m a little terrified of completely screwing up and ruining paper. Making a cover? Binding stuff? AAHH. Plus it needs to lay flat! How! At work we do these awesome booklets on 11×17 paper, but folded, they’re only 11×8.5, which seems like a waste… .. …. but a heck of a lot easier… 

ANYWAY… 

This leaves the problem of “I’m only allowed to have 15 pages” of art in a 24 page book that does not permit the addition or removal of pages. I can include a cover page, TOC (so overkill omg), contact page, thanks page, and a bio page, but that still leaves four pages, and it always looks so tacky to have blank pages at the end of a book…

It has been suggested that division pages could work, but part of me is not wanting to lump my art into specific sections… mostly because I would be worried that I was miscategorizing things, and that would make me look like an idiot. 

I could use one of them to hold postcards, which I guess is a thing that illustrators give out as promotional material for their work along with business cards… 

This is hard. 

But at least I know how to use InDesign thanks to my job, so it will be fun to lay this sucker out. 

Re: Portfolio.

First of all, I emailed the guy who wrote the ‘Forget Style’ post to tell him how much you guys loved it. He wrote back and said he’s glad to hear it. 🙂 This is also the guy who is going to be critiquing my portfolio. I’m stoked.

Second, I researched a ton of paper last night, and then emailed my boss for his opinion. Dude knows his paper. I got into work today and he gave me his feedback and said that he put some leftover 12×18 100lb coverstock on my desk to look at. My boss is the best. I took home a sheet to play with and he was just like “okay!” 

Then tonight, I ordered two different reams of paper… a ream of 60lb and 80lb cover stock gloss paper (since cover tends to be thicker than text, and while I want this to be NICE, I have to be a little budget-conscious). I’m having them shipped to work, and they should be there in a week or two. Boss has already okayed my printing after hours on our industrial laserjet, since I don’t need that many prints for this project.

The binder that I have is a 24 page 11×14 Itoya Art Profolio, which isn’t as nice as some of the other books, but with my 40% off coupon at Michael’s, it was a quarter of the price of the nicer books. And while I could try to make my own book, I’m a little terrified of completely screwing up and ruining paper. Making a cover? Binding stuff? AAHH. Plus it needs to lay flat! How! At work we do these awesome booklets on 11×17 paper, but folded, they’re only 11×8.5, which seems like a waste… .. …. but a heck of a lot easier… 

ANYWAY… 

This leaves the problem of “I’m only allowed to have 15 pages” of art in a 24 page book that does not permit the addition or removal of pages. I can include a cover page, TOC (so overkill omg), contact page, thanks page, and a bio page, but that still leaves four pages, and it always looks so tacky to have blank pages at the end of a book…

It has been suggested that division pages could work, but part of me is not wanting to lump my art into specific sections… mostly because I would be worried that I was miscategorizing things, and that would make me look like an idiot. 

I could use one of them to hold postcards, which I guess is a thing that illustrators give out as promotional material for their work along with business cards… 

This is hard. 

But at least I know how to use InDesign thanks to my job, so it will be fun to lay this sucker out.