Month: March 2016

This is me, having a severe crisis in confidence over the past several days. 

My book has major issues. My writing is trite and cliche. I can’t tie a story together worth crap and I fear that my characters are too passive to keep people reading. I think that a lot of it can be fixed in revision, but I have to keep going and stay motivated enough to follow through with it. I tend to give up too easily.

My art is problematic. Too saturated, too messy. Textures and photoshop filters don’t hide underlying problems. I have a lot of work to do if I’m going to reach the next level. 

Neither of these things bring in money to the house. The chances of me being published or officially commissioned in a professional capacity are quite slim. I know this. So is it worth beating myself up over every day about it? Is it worth pouring more and more money into writing conferences and art supplies and things like a tablet, that would let me lie on the couch and do work?

Do I have the capacity and the potential to improve and do something with my crafts? Or is this just a hobby? 

I love writing and I love art. I am not satisfied with my skill in either right now. I don’t think I could ever give either up, but at what point does it just become… ridiculous to keep hoping? To keep saying that my dream is to be a published author/illustrator? 

I don’t think I’m bad, but I’m definitely not great. I know enough, now, to tell the difference. I’m just not that calibre. 

Should I be content with doodles and stories that I keep locked in my drawer and don’t tell anyone about? Maybe spend more time cleaning my house instead of working on outlines and comparing tablet models? 

I’ve long since passed the point of not wanting to share my sketchbook with anyone, even when they ask. I don’t let most people read my writing, either. 

Can I get better or is it already too late?

barukkatharine:

my favorite things about long running anime:

  • actual eras with distinctive art styles.
  • really really good animation and really really bad animation, all in the same show.
  • “how many VAs have died so far?”
  • no one even knows what the plot is anymore. it’s all lost in the distant past, like valentine’s day.
  • they have animated that same opening images a dozen times by now, and somehow they keep getting worse at it.
  • that one part that you will never forget because it was so incredibly bad it is seared into your mind for the rest of your life.
  • cell animation and computer animation can be compared in a way that they can’t for any show that was purely one or the other.
  • that period after Attack on Titan blew up and everything was stylistically thick lines. everything.
  • jokes/complaints that don’t even make sense to you anymore. like octopus hair. I rewatched the octopus hair earlier, and I have no idea why I decided it was octopus hair. I mean it wasn’t good, but it wasn’t exactly the “his hair looks like tentacles” that I remember either.
  • that one anime original episode that you actually like and will defend to your dying breath as evidence that the anime team is not completely creatively bankrupt after fifteen goddamn years.
  • literally watching the effects of years of changes to the anime industry over the course of one show. hey, remember when different directors worked on different episodes all at once, and so the style and animation quality veered wildly from episode to episode? good times. terrible times.
  • early episodes whose entire plots could be fixed by cell phones. later episodes where everyone has smartphones. the main character is still seven years old. somewhere, a portable fax machine disguised as a bentobox is crying.

What do angels actually look like per the bible?

thessenceofmay:

the-unreadable-book:

revelation19:

musiqchild007:

revelation19:

Well, according to Ezekiel 1 they might look something like this…

According to Daniel 10 something like this…

According to Isaiah 6…

In Ezekiel 10… 

Again in Ezekiel 10…

Basically, when the people writing Scripture tried to describe what they saw when they saw an angel… they run into the end of their imagination… they can never quite seem to fully explain it because they had trouble even comprehending what they saw, let alone being able to describe it to someone else. 

Yeah, that’s usually how people responded to seeing them in the Bible…

There’s a good reason why angels’ standard greeting is ‘Do not be afraid’.

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Me: Please look at this thing I found on tumblr
Friend: We are both on tumblr. We are mutuals. I see everything you reblog.
Me: look at this other thing tho
Friend: You reblogged that from me

rufftoon:

coryloftis:

My favorite set of Lionheart animation draw overs.  Not because anything was particularly helpful to the animator, but because the cheese was quickly sliding off my cracker that day.

Great to see the attention to the tiniest details to improve animation (and also proof that when you work in this business, your brain does wonky things)

There is nothing about this that I don’t love.