{"id":6359,"date":"2013-08-30T07:54:20","date_gmt":"2013-08-30T07:54:20","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/archive.gabapple.com\/tumblr\/whiteknighthakuba\/index.php\/2013\/08\/30\/koizumiakako-no-i-didnt-know-but-i-cant\/"},"modified":"2013-08-30T07:54:20","modified_gmt":"2013-08-30T07:54:20","slug":"koizumiakako-no-i-didnt-know-but-i-cant","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/archive.gabapple.com\/tumblr\/whiteknighthakuba\/index.php\/2013\/08\/30\/koizumiakako-no-i-didnt-know-but-i-cant\/","title":{"rendered":""},"content":{"rendered":"

koizumiakako<\/a>:<\/p>\n

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“No, I didn\u2019t know. But I can\u2019t really say that I\u2019m surprised by it,” she answered to his first question. “You\u2019ve displayed quite a few self-destructive tendencies already.”<\/p>\n

She paused not really sure how to continue. On one hand she wanted to cause him strenuous discomfort but on the other hand\u2026 she really just wanted to lie and sugar coat it. Obviously, neither one of those things were going to be helpful.<\/p>\n

“I\u2019m not going to lie to you. My original goal was to make Kuroba-kun jealous, or at the very least, notice me. No matter what I did, he completely ignored my advances. You were a rival, the perfect opportunity to make him upset.” It was the truth, no matter how painful. Lying wouldn\u2019t get her anywhere. “It didn\u2019t work of course. It never does\u2026<\/p>\n

"But even knowing that, I hesitated to end our fabricated relationship.” She bit her lip painfully, trying to keep herself grounded in the present. “You were loyal, kind, a good listener\u2026 and completely genuine\u2026 that terrified me. It scared me to think that you weren\u2019t there because of my spell. So I tried to end it before you got too attached. Strike two, right?<\/p>\n

"I used you to get to him even though it\u2019s completely hopeless. I know that and I think I\u2019ve always known that\u2026 even before. I don\u2019t expect you to forgive me but I need you to understand that it wasn\u2019t all make-believe. I\u2019m not that heartless.”<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n

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“Hah…"\u00a0<\/p>\n

Hakuba stood for a moment, watching Akako as he processed what she’d said, giving that cold, sort of heart-broken laugh.<\/p>\n

"Please, allow me to reiterate. You cast a spell, used me to try to attract Kuroba-san, and when you found out that I had fallen for you, \u00a0dumped me and pushed me away. Because it scared you… that you<\/em> were getting attached?”<\/p>\n

He shrugged, helplessly. “And now, you don’t want me because I’m worthless, soiled, and self-destructive. Too dirty and common for your tastes. And you wonder\u00a0why<\/em> I’m self-destructive."\u00a0<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

koizumiakako: “No, I didn\u2019t know. But I can\u2019t really say that I\u2019m surprised by it,” she answered to his first question. “You\u2019ve displayed quite a few self-destructive tendencies already.” She paused not really sure how to continue. On one hand she wanted to cause him strenuous discomfort but on the other hand\u2026 she really just […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[5112,76,1371,75],"class_list":["post-6359","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-uncategorized","tag-hakuba-i-dont-think-thats-quite-righ-ohh-okay-stop-looking-at-me-like-that-plz","tag-ic","tag-koizumiakako","tag-rp"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/archive.gabapple.com\/tumblr\/whiteknighthakuba\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/6359","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/archive.gabapple.com\/tumblr\/whiteknighthakuba\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/archive.gabapple.com\/tumblr\/whiteknighthakuba\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/archive.gabapple.com\/tumblr\/whiteknighthakuba\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/archive.gabapple.com\/tumblr\/whiteknighthakuba\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=6359"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"http:\/\/archive.gabapple.com\/tumblr\/whiteknighthakuba\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/6359\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/archive.gabapple.com\/tumblr\/whiteknighthakuba\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=6359"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/archive.gabapple.com\/tumblr\/whiteknighthakuba\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=6359"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/archive.gabapple.com\/tumblr\/whiteknighthakuba\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=6359"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}