{"id":6346,"date":"2013-08-30T09:10:40","date_gmt":"2013-08-30T09:10:40","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/archive.gabapple.com\/tumblr\/whiteknighthakuba\/index.php\/2013\/08\/30\/koizumiakako-your-selective-hearing-is\/"},"modified":"2013-08-30T09:10:40","modified_gmt":"2013-08-30T09:10:40","slug":"koizumiakako-your-selective-hearing-is","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/archive.gabapple.com\/tumblr\/whiteknighthakuba\/index.php\/2013\/08\/30\/koizumiakako-your-selective-hearing-is\/","title":{"rendered":""},"content":{"rendered":"

koizumiakako<\/a>:<\/p>\n

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“Your selective hearing is becoming vexatious,” she growled. “What exactly do you want from me? I simply told you the truth and now you\u2019re acting as if you want to pick up where we left off even though you talk about me with vinegared words.<\/p>\n

"Yes, I got attached to you and yes, I got scared. You must look at me like a robot if I should be so incapable of making mistakes. Of feeling fear.” It was taking all of her willpower not to say something hurtful. Fight or flight was starting to kick in\u2026 she was going to have to admit to something private if she wanted this is end on a better note.<\/p>\n

“Did you know,\u00a0Hakuba-kun<\/em>,that\u00a0I had never had a boyfriend before you? I was already in brand new territory. I make people fall in fake love with me because I\u2019m terrified of actual love. Terrified of what it might do to me. I can\u2019t possibly hope to make someone like you understand\u2026 someone constantly surrounded by people who choose to be there.\u201d She felt her face heating up and dug her nails into the flesh of her palm. \u201cIt\u2019s sickening how you take it for granted\u2026\u201d<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n

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"And you\u00a0don’t?"\u00a0<\/em>Hakuba raised an incredulous brow, jaw tight with frustration at the mess of it all. "There are dozens of boys at school who would worship at your feet if you would give them the chance, but you only seem interested in those who would pose a challenge.”<\/p>\n

He tilted his head, expression suddenly something between a scowl and a triumphant smile at his sudden realization.\u00a0“You know what I think? I think that you and I are not at all\u00a0<\/span>dissimilar. In fact, you and I share many of the same vices. I don’t use love spells, but I dabble in ‘fake love’ all of the time because I’m convinced that no one\u00a0could<\/em> love me. People don’t\u00a0choose<\/em> to be around me, Koizumi-san. People avoid me except when they can take advantage of me. And I let them because it’s at least better than being alone, isn’t it?”
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The detective laughed. “God, and yes, I have it bad for Kuroba-kun, just like you. And just as it is for you, it’s a pointless chase. Neither of us are going to win in the end. I’m constantly afraid, despite the rejection being, likewise, constant. I, like you, am alone so much of the time. Perhaps no one can stand us. Perhaps we don’t let anyone near us. It doesn’t matter either way because we are, still,\u00a0alone.<\/em>
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”…<\/em>and for the record, Koizumi-san, you were the only\u00a0girlfriend<\/em> I’ve ever<\/em> had. And I was terrified to even try because relationships and I never work out well. Still haven’t. So, no, I understand. I understand very, very well.“<\/span><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

koizumiakako: \u00a0 “Your selective hearing is becoming vexatious,” she growled. “What exactly do you want from me? I simply told you the truth and now you\u2019re acting as if you want to pick up where we left off even though you talk about me with vinegared words. "Yes, I got attached to you and yes, […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[5099,76,1371,75,5098,5097],"class_list":["post-6346","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-uncategorized","tag-hakubas-on-a-short-fuse","tag-ic","tag-koizumiakako","tag-rp","tag-so-many-confessions-tonight","tag-yeahh-well-there-we-go-now"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/archive.gabapple.com\/tumblr\/whiteknighthakuba\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/6346","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/archive.gabapple.com\/tumblr\/whiteknighthakuba\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/archive.gabapple.com\/tumblr\/whiteknighthakuba\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/archive.gabapple.com\/tumblr\/whiteknighthakuba\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/archive.gabapple.com\/tumblr\/whiteknighthakuba\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=6346"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"http:\/\/archive.gabapple.com\/tumblr\/whiteknighthakuba\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/6346\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/archive.gabapple.com\/tumblr\/whiteknighthakuba\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=6346"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/archive.gabapple.com\/tumblr\/whiteknighthakuba\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=6346"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/archive.gabapple.com\/tumblr\/whiteknighthakuba\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=6346"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}