{"id":5912,"date":"2013-09-16T23:58:46","date_gmt":"2013-09-16T23:58:46","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/archive.gabapple.com\/tumblr\/whiteknighthakuba\/index.php\/2013\/09\/16\/another-goodbye\/"},"modified":"2013-09-16T23:58:46","modified_gmt":"2013-09-16T23:58:46","slug":"another-goodbye","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/archive.gabapple.com\/tumblr\/whiteknighthakuba\/index.php\/2013\/09\/16\/another-goodbye\/","title":{"rendered":"another goodbye"},"content":{"rendered":"

“Kaito… this is… difficult for me to say. I know that you’ve… tried. To be there for me, I mean. But I just can’t do it anymore. I feel like I haven’t slept in months. My mind never stops buzzing. The headache never goes away. I’ve stopped the drinking, the smoking, the late nights, but… the nightmares are worse. Constant.”<\/span><\/p>\n

A slow, measured breath and then a sigh. <\/span><\/p>\n

“I don’t expect you to understand what’s going through my head right now… it’s agony. I don’t remember the last time I was able to really relax. Even making love, now, I… the images.. they’re always there, like… shadows clinging to the corners of the room. Faces. Figures. I can feel them touching me. I can hear their whispers. It…. I… I just need to sleep… I just need to rest a little while. When you get back from your trip I’m sure I’ll be fine… just don’t.. worry too much. It just hurts. Hurts hurts hurts. I love you… mon cher corbeau<\/em><\/a>…. I’m just… so tired.”<\/span><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

“Kaito… this is… difficult for me to say. I know that you’ve… tried. To be there for me, I mean. But I just can’t do it anymore. I feel like I haven’t slept in months. My mind never stops buzzing. The headache never goes away. I’ve stopped the drinking, the smoking, the late nights, but… […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[4732,2078,4733,4737,4735,3968,128,4734,4736],"class_list":["post-5912","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-uncategorized","tag-i-wrote-a-new-one-today-because-i-didnt-like-the-last-one-as-much","tag-death","tag-didnt-seem-quite-personal-enough-even-though-i-liked-the-involvement-of-spider","tag-goodbye","tag-hurray","tag-kaitobird","tag-memes","tag-this-one-is-really-horrible-though","tag-voicemail"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/archive.gabapple.com\/tumblr\/whiteknighthakuba\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/5912","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/archive.gabapple.com\/tumblr\/whiteknighthakuba\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/archive.gabapple.com\/tumblr\/whiteknighthakuba\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/archive.gabapple.com\/tumblr\/whiteknighthakuba\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/archive.gabapple.com\/tumblr\/whiteknighthakuba\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=5912"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"http:\/\/archive.gabapple.com\/tumblr\/whiteknighthakuba\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/5912\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/archive.gabapple.com\/tumblr\/whiteknighthakuba\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=5912"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/archive.gabapple.com\/tumblr\/whiteknighthakuba\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=5912"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/archive.gabapple.com\/tumblr\/whiteknighthakuba\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=5912"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}