akaikujixyaku:

“Oh I suppose I knew what you meant, it’s still more fun to try and tease you in any case. Sometimes I’ll get you, more often than I used to, for certain.”

“Thank you, Saguru— Is it odd that I call you that? Probably a little unusual. Hm. In any case.”

“I owe a lot of my confidence to you, and others like you, not solely my relationship and family. No, to this day… being your friend is undoubtedly among the best things which has ever happened in my life. That wallflower peeks out, now and then. At a gala, meeting some of my husband’s friends, or coworkers.. But for the most part, I’m just..”

“I always used to think I had so many reasons to be sad, and that’s why I made myself sad. Became meek, and shy. I just became better at realizing the wonderful things that were always around me. You. Akira. Eventually my husband, and now my son- Even just the people on the way to work in the mornings, and the view from the window of my bedroom, and the scent of trees.

Oh Saguru, there are so many beautiful, wonderful things to be happy about around us. It just doesn’t make sense to be sad. Sure, I still get sad from time to time, but it’s nothing as chronic as it once was.

And I’m sleeping much more than I used to, that’s also nice. And I mean I sleep like a bear, twelve hours sometimes if we’re back from a harsh trip.”

“I, ah, certainly must have changed if I’m letting you call me Saguru… God, I can’t tell you how much I hate that name. Still, perhaps that means I’ve managed to get over… a lot of things. No small thanks to you, I’m certain.

"More sleep is good. Friends, too, or so I’m told… Yes, that was a joke, I know that we’re friends even now. It warms my heart to know that we’re still connected, even after… whatever ends up happening. 

"Tell me, are you still just as reckless, or have you calmed down some since you’ve now got a son to think about? Is your husband as reckless as you are?”