dark-reflections replied to your post:

[[Sneaks in and extinguishs the fire, leaving candy behind. “I hope tomorrow is a better day.” :)]]
looking-through-time replied to your post
((*offers hugs and chocolate and puppies and sprinkles feel-better glitter on you*))

Thanks, guys. I’m sorry. Life has been really terrible lately and I just feel so lost and dumb and it’s all… just awful. And I don’t know if it’s the situation and all of the stress from other things or adjusting to meds or what, but I keep getting all bent out of shape over RP stuff and feeling like people want me gone or don’t really care and I mean, I know I do have friends that DO care… but then other people who claim to be my friends I just feel used by and not cared about? 

Just this huge drama… mess… and it’s all really stupid ugh… 

I just want to stay in bed and cry all the time, this really isn’t normal or okay. And I really hate feeling so paranoid. I doubt people are ignoring me on purpose. It’s dumb. I’m just having issues. 

I’m sorry for the whining. :/ 

I need cute happy things. or something.

stuff I owe:

Please let me know if I owe you a reply and your name is NOT on this list (shortest to longest waiting):

  1. sxpphire-sky
  2. dark-reflections
  3. smokebombsandmirrors (x3)
  4. miyanohaibara
  5. thenightmarebyyourside
  6. crystalizedrainbow
  7. kuroba-k (x3 2)
  8. littledetective
  9. baiganraltaica
  10. ft-dc-fan
  11.  (x2)
  12. patientxpetals
  13. daughterofthesleuth
  14. osakandetectivehattori (x3)
  15. britishhsdetectivehakuba
  16. kaitouxjeanne
  17. askkudoushinichi (x2)
  18. meitanteiosaka (x2)
  19. detectivephiliac
  20. akaikujixyaku
  21. shsl-queenofcakes (x2)
  22. officertakagi

Plus a bunch of asks/meme responses/etc that I need to write. 

[ ♔ ] meet the puppeteer

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name: Melissa (just call me Gab though)
height: 5’6”
eye color: blue
favorite color(s): idk… ultramarine blue, sage green, crimson red, orange…
best school subject(s): english, art, and get this – math!
current shirt color: blue and white
day or night: night ’(ovo)’ hoot
religion: agnostic theist
gender: female
sexual orientation: demi
single or taken: taken
celebrity crush: eYEBROWS 
coffee or tea: iced tea mmm… 
favorite food: curry rice or tacos or sushi

Who am I to you? Anonymously leave a fruit or two in my inbox.

Crabapple: I haven’t really taken notice of you so far.
Honeydew: You fascinate me.
Banana: You annoy me.
Mulberry: Mostly I tolerate you on my dash.
Cherry: You make me uncomfortable.
Orange: I love your blog, but I’m not very interested in you personally.
Grapefruit: I don’t care so much for your blog, but I’m rather interested in you as a person.
Kiwi: Love your blog, equally interested in you as a person.
Pineapple: I think about you even when I’m not on tumblr.
Rasberry: I’m not even aware I’m re-blogging from you when I do.
Strawberry: I wasn’t even aware I was following you. How did that happen?
Mango: I wouldn’t mind talking to you if you ever messaged me, but it’s not that big of a deal to me.
Apple: I would really like to talk to you, but I never will initiate it.
Guava: I have no interest in talking with you on here.
Blueberry: Sometimes, I like and re-blog posts from you just to get your attention.
Cantaloupe: I often avoid liking and re-blogging your post so I don’t draw your attention.
Watermelon: I’m not very interested in you or your blog, I’m just too lazy to unfollow you.
Elderberry: I’ve anon-ed you something personal before.
Pumpkin: I’ve anon-ed you a compliment before.
Kumquat: I’ve anon-ed you hate before.
Lemon: Never anon-ed you before, probably won’t again.
Lime: We’ve never talked and I prefer to keep it that way.
Papaya: We used to talk but we don’t anymore and that makes me sad.
Rhubarb: We used to talk and we don’t anymore and I prefer it that way.
Tangerine: We talk on here sometimes and I want it to continue.
Plum: Meh.

Ambien Chat with Allie

Sometimes I wake up to the weirdest chatlogs…

Allie Pigion waves!
Gab hugs and drunkenly cuddles
Allie Pigion <333
Allie Pigion wonders if Gab is drunk?
Gab: just drugged actually
Allie Pigion: …o
Allie Pigion: Ambien?
Gab: yEEEEEPS
Allie Pigion: LOL
Allie Pigion: ARE YOU STILL HERE OR ARE YOU REALLY
Allie Pigion: /DRUGGED/
Gab: reaally trucggked
Gab: I think
Allie Pigion pushes gab off to bed
Allie Pigion throws love on
Allie Pigion tucks gab in
Gab consumes love aom nom ommoom
Allie Pigion o
Allie Pigion offers bowl of steamed love
Gab: slwoyl eats lipke panda
Allie Pigion squeals
Allie Pigion loves on
Allie Pigion: gab is officially a pand
Allie Pigion: a
Gab: omnomnommmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm
Gab: woah wit
Gab: what where did those come frommmmmm
Allie Pigion: omg
Gab: flalfing aslepe a desk?
Allie Pigion: your nom power has surpassed all
Allie Pigion: gab
Allie Pigion: sleep
Gab: orivavaky sghoudl
Gab: can hard ly keoeny head up
Allie Pigion: gab
Allie Pigion: go sleep
Allie Pigion: the bed
Allie Pigion: awaits
Allie Pigion: all poofy
Allie Pigion: plush
Allie Pigion: warm
Allie Pigion: it calls
Gab: is it it isyhea plus aaron isther1!
Gab: being alsleepeing
Allie Pigion: y e sssss
Allie Pigion: go join your lovable husband
Allie Pigion: dump love on him
Gab: je’s socutte
Allie Pigion: <333
Gab: allslepeing
Allie Pigion: omg <3
Allie Pigion: you are cute
Allie Pigion: okay go sleep
Allie Pigion: be cute together
Allie Pigion: cuteness deserves more cuteness
Allie Pigion: this is how the world turns
Gab: yeah is vey cute os goocutei ts; klike
Gab: s vuhyr yhinh
Allie Pigion: yes very cute
Allie Pigion: gab go sleep
Allie Pigion: on the bed
Allie Pigion: beside aaron
Gab: thsa bg
Allie Pigion ROLLS GAB
Allie Pigion: OFF
Allie Pigion: TO
Allie Pigion: BED
Allie Pigion: GAB
Allie Pigion: SLEEP
Gab: ijg okay giibduggt M333
Gab: <3
Allie Pigion: <33
Allie Pigion: Good night Gabbers <3
Gab: night<@2
Allie Pigion: 😀 <3
Allie Pigion: <3333
Allie Pigion: <3333333333
Allie Pigion: Allie Pigion dumps love on
Allie Pigion: Allie Pigion tucks in
Gab: purrrr
Allie Pigion: omg ilu
Allie Pigion: cutie
Gab: iluutooo
Allie Pigion: <333 go sleep
Gab: gnight
Allie Pigion: good night <333
Allie Pigion: i will be online tomorrow see you then <3

I think I may have overdone it with sketching earlier this week – my wrist is killing me and it feels like my whole arm is on fire. Ow ow ow. I mean, worth it for the resulting drawings, but geez… even typing is difficult right now. Wrist brace + ibuprofen is a go, will use a hot pad later. Apologies if my replies are delayed as a result. I want to RP and my head feels great for it, finally, but argh tendonitis why!!!