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gabapple: Donation Drive – July 19th, 2015from 12pm-11pm mountain time I desperately need funds and I’ve exhausted every avenue I can think of. All that’s left is the yard sale and hoping for help from you lovely people. I realize that times are tough for many of us out there, though, so even if you […]
Move-in day is July 21st. We just got the lease signed on the new place yesterday. There’s still a ton of stuff to do between now and then, but things should calm down a LOTTTTT after we’re all settled.
Thanks for your patience~
I decided to answer this publicly because I have been keeping a lot of things under wraps lately. *HUGS first, though!*
Things have been crazy stressful. I think I’ve been doing better than I have been, but it has not been without great effort. I’ve always struggled with depression, but things came to a head last summer as the past ten years all caught up to me and I more or less had a series of nervous breakdowns and ended up losing my job as a result… which sucked since we were already facing financial ruin.
Six months later, I finally have a new job, but now I’m gone from the house for ~12 hours a day, and my hubby is on the job market again, too. So we’re still so, so, so broke (like months behind on rent & car payment, with our phones off, checks bouncing, overdraft fees), and now busier than ever… so the house is a mess… AND the person who owns this house is coming next month to visit and may or may not evict us then. Uh. Yeah. One thing is for sure, as soon as we can afford it, we’re filing for bankruptcy.
Did you know that you can be too broke to file for bankruptcy?
At least the medication seems to be helping with the anxiety and having to get up so early and run around for work has helped with the insomnia. There’s ever-looming, heavy guilt from being so far behind with replies and commissions and things, but I have to keep reminding myself that at least I am pushing through suicidal thoughts and barely keeping my head above water.
This is why I haven’t been online lately, though.
Uhhhh… so let’s see, to recap… depression, financial worries, may or may not be homeless soon (or moving?), guilt, stress… but new job that is fun and fulfilling even though it takes up a LOT of time? I get health insurance starting next month, though. Which is amazing because I haven’t had it in two years… even though I need to be getting my blood tested every 6 months or so because of that whole cancer thing.
IDK
I just need to be patient. And keep going. And hopefully things will work out.
For now, though, I should get to bed!
I start my new job today, which will take up a lot of time. That said, I really miss you guys and I really miss RPing. What I may do is go on semi-hiatus for a while, using this blog as an ask blog instead of an RP blog, and then evaluate my threads when things calm down. I’ll probably drop a good number of them and set a cap. That way, I won’t feel pressured to reply to threads where the other person has since gone inactive, I guess? IDK. That’s still a ways out, anyway.
:’(
Need to write more Hakuba…
I have a ton of stuff to get done in the next month or so, so I’m going to try to restrict my fun internetting to the weekends. Hopefully this means I’ll actually be able to do replies instead of lurking and feeling guilty all the time.
Real life is crappy. I miss you guys. But if I don’t want to be homeless, I need to do something, and fast. 😐
Thanks, guys ;__;
I’m steadily getting better! No more pain, thanks to the meds, but I’m still not 100%. Man I miss hearing out of my left ear… I hope that stops pretty soon…
I miss you guys!
Btw, for those not following my gabapplewrites account, I’ve been sick with an ear infection (fever+ chills, it’s great), so I haven’t been around. Sorry! Hopefully I’ll be back soon now that I have an antibiotic.
Thanks for your patience!
“Unfortunately, I’m stuck doing a bit more novel work over on salmoncoal, so I’ve been more or less absent lately. I do intend to return soon, though I won’t lament missing April Fool’s day… I honestly don’t have the stomach for ridiculous pranks. Anyway, it’s tea time… carry on~”
Okay so obviously I’m going through my inbox from the past two weeks… and I’m drafting most of the replies for later, but I seem to have a lot less than I thought I did. Which means that I may have hit ‘answer privately’ on some instead of ‘save as draft.’
O O P S
If this is the case, please resend the ask T___T;;;;; I swear I’ll do it right this time.
Not dead, just caught a bug.
Kind of like con crud but it’s probably more like an “oh right your home city is a valley filled with pollution, betcha miss washington, huh?” sort of thing. Please bear with me while I get back on my feet. <3