sadisticfiction:

you’ve only been rping 9 months? :O That’s amazing you’re already such a pro! ^^ I feel u about not having confidence, but I think you just have to keep pushing through? …

Oh gosh, thank you for the kind comments. <3 I should clarify, though – I’ve only been tumblrrping for the last 9 months… but I’ve been roleplaying on MUSHes/MUCKs/etc since ‘99. In fact, that’s how I met my husband! We were playing on a Pokemon MUSH a million years ago, started talking about art and playing together and… bam! He moved here to date me in person (LDRs are hard, man) and we got married 2 years later. ….7 ½ years ago. omg I AM old!

Re: The books… I need to set time aside every day to write. I know how to write and what I need to do, but I always… just avoid it. For some reason. I think my mentor had a point about my being afraid. But I could write a huge essay on that topic alone (I actually have a comic in draft form for that). 

I’ve been re-reading my current novel in progress lately, though, and it’s getting me excited for it again… so that’s a plus! 

Must set goals. Must actually work toward them every day. 

Re: The art… I get in a funk with my art every single winter. It’s like my skills and confidence run and hibernate. If you’re curious, though, my portfolio is here: http://gabapple.com/ – truth be told, I went to university to be an animator, switched to the illustration major, and then took mostly english classes. Uh. I’ll get out of my rut eventually… just need to keep trying to get commissions done in the meantime and attempt to not complain so much. 

ugh I need to update my website… the events tab is totally out of date. I only have one con to sell at lined up for 2014 so far…

and I need to fix my comic website and get back into that again. and to think I was Guest of Honor at a con last summer for my art. :I what has become of me?

regardless, thank you so much for your help (and the advice that you’re giving to me on skype dkjlgafdas you’re amazing) <333

wewillstartwiththeridingcrop:

While he listened to the young detective begin to piece together what he was trying to say, Sherlock silently observed him with a hardened, almost unreadable expression. This person was certainly not unpleasant or difficult to converse with but Sherlock wasn’t sure how he was supposed to be so much more amicable and pleasantly charming than himself. Hakuba was definitely very clever and therefore had a very active mind. Like Sherlock’s, it seemed to be like a bee hive with ideas and thoughts swirling round simultaneously. This gave him a coldness to his attitude that was all too evident to the consulting detective, perhaps because this a trait that he identified himself as also possessing. He was a good detective and an opportunist, much of his charm therefore must stem from him projecting a more friendly approachable facade that would allow him to get the information he needs to do his job.

Upon hearing James decline the gift of one of the hats, Sherlock’s expression faltered and he looked a little surprised. Few ever declined anything from him, especially the gift of one of his own belongings for free. It was almost unheard of in this day and age where he and John were constantly being ambushed by the media at inopportune times. “Oh, is that so? Many would be falling down at my feet in gratitude at the offer yet you brush it off so casually. You may see it as a token of whatever you wish, including your adventure here with me if you desire. What you do with it once you leave is irrelevant to me. If I am going to be eternally remembered in that accursed piece of headgear then I would like it to be a symbol of just how loathsome and detestable the world around us truly is. Still, it is the horrors of the world that provide me with sport and entertainment so I shouldn’t be so harsh on it.”

The detective’s gaze hardened as James mentioned how much time was being wasted and he scowled slightly. “I think I am more than capable of monitoring my own time on my own case without your input, as helpful as you may be trying to be, My Hakuba. You may be my supposed successor but let us not forget I am no amateur neither am I anywhere near past my prime.” he stated in a cool tone, stalking closely past the young detective and into the door, his Belstaff coat brushing against him as he passed by. Once he was just inside Sherlock turned on his heel and gestured with his head for Hakuba to follow. “You wish to be of some use to me by utilizing your charm? So be it. Your visually appealing face should be used for something other than as a tool in your flirting after all. I don’t normally hand over the reins to anyone but I must admit I am intrigued by you enough to like you at this current time. Prove your usefulness to me, Mr Hakuba. I am waiting.”

So it was going to be like that then? Hakuba took another breath, steeling himself against rising to the bait, though it was difficult. Very difficult. Instead, to Sherlock, he offered a cool smile as he entered the building, nodding his head in concession.

He’d heard many things about dealing with Mr. Holmes in person, and so far, he was finding that many of the claims had been… justified. However, if the study of difficult people had taught him anything, it was that unreasonable expectations and misunderstandings were often the cause of such cold behavior. Sherlock was not a patient man, clearly, and with being forced to deal with such dull and often destructive people, day in and day out, who could blame him? That in mind, it only made sense to the young detective to grin and bear it as patiently as he could. 

…besides, Mr. Holmes had just called him handsome. And sort of said that he was a flirt. Was this a good thing? He couldn’t tell, but somehow it pleased him. Just a little bit. 

“I’ll look forward to a formal invitation to Baker Street in that case, Mr. Holmes, and will leave it to you to pass on your deerstalker crown when you’re adequately ready,” Hakuba said as he walked past him and into the lobby, heading toward the reception desk. What he’d said was a playful tease, and he hoped that the smile he offered afterward made that evident.

Regardless, he didn’t give his idol the chance to rebuttal before he came to lean on the counter, face relaxing into a casual, charming expression of warmth.

“Afternoon, Miss Wells! It’s a pleasure to see you again. Do you mind if… my associate and I nip up to the security office to review the last hour or so of footage? I promise we won’t be long.”

The receptionist glanced up from her work and let her gaze move from Hakuba, whom she knew from previous visits, to Sherlock, whom she’d seen on the telly, and quirked a brow before turning back to the younger of the detectives. “Certainly, James… I’ll let them know you both are coming." 

While she lifted the receiver to inform the security team, Hakuba gave a nod, a quiet ‘thank you,’ and gestured toward the door leading to the stairwell. 

"This way, Mr. Holmes.”

wewillstartwiththeridingcrop:

For a second Sherlock was about to comment on the slight wince that Hakuba had made but decided against it. At this current time any emotion that was going through the young man’s mind was unimportant. Evidently he was as interested in solving this crime as Sherlock was so there was no need for either of them to get bogged down in conversations about their innermost thoughts. Upon the mention of the man being a detective too, Sherlock’s attention snapped back and his eyes settled gently on his face. “Oh, is that so? You’re a detective, eh? That would explain your meticulous note taking and keen eye for detail. It seems you are more interesting than I initially gave you credit for, Mr Hakuba. I cannot say I am not a little pleased to hear that. How I detest the ordinary people and their boring little lives. Being forced to interact with them is like watching a lethargic goldfish.” Sherlock frowned momentarily. “Perhaps you will be lucky and your presence here with me today will get you somewhere on your own investagation?”

 Taking a quick glance to check he was still heading toward the security building, Sherlock pulled his phone out of his pocket and quickly typed in the name the young detective had given him. If there was anything at all notable about his companion then he was sure it would be noted by someone on the internet. From his own experiences he was well aware that many details of a person’s life and reputation could be immortalized on a webpage in a far more immediate way than any newspaper was capable of.

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“That’s certainly a possibility,” Hakuba said, head tilting as he followed along, regarding the man who walked, he thought, with an admirable determination. Oh, such praise from Sherlock! He could hardly contain the tint of color on his face ash e blushed. Not five minutes spent with him, and already he’d been elevated from the common rabble of people. Was this how John felt? He must, keeping such incredible company, even though the tone of his blog was, at times, a little sarcastic. 

He mulled these thoughts over in his mind pleasantly, almost missing the other detective’s actions until it was nearly too late. Was he-? Oh god no. "Ah, Mr. Holmes! There’s no need for that, really,“ he cried in weak protest, preemptively lifting a hand to cover his face in embarrassment. "Really, my own work is inconsequential and not at all as pressing as your culprit!”

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But even typing ‘Sagu’ into a smart phone near London with the GPS activated brought up search suggestions, with full name, along with other helpful additions. ‘A Young Sherlock Holmes,’ ‘Up and Coming Detective,’ ‘Scotland Yard’s New Favorite?,’ ‘photoshoot,’ ‘austringer monthly,’ and so on.

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The first link was to an article reviewing the teenager’s latest case, in which the following statement had been highlighted on the left under a candid photo of Hakuba, in deerstalker cap, at a crime scene:

“Really, the key difference between Hakuba and Holmes,” said Lestrade with a smile, “is that the former has an agreeable personality!" 

Oh dear. So much for that. 

akaikujixyaku:

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 He thought he was protecting her. He thought that he was venomous, and he knew that it would be best- someday. Eventually. Maybe. But that didn’t seem to be what he was thinking, as he after he’d said it to her, her gaze fell dark, and full of a sadness he had never known from her bright eyes. Because he was thinking that it would hurt her a little, that he would have to hurt her to make sure she would be safe, and if he had to lie and tell her things about her he didn’t believe for just this instance, if it would mean she wouldn’t keep holding on- that she would be better off someday, because of it- then he would. But he didn’t know that everything he said would be taken into the deepest part of her heart.

That she immediately knew that she had suffocated him, when she hadn’t. That she knewthat she had ruined everything good for herself, again, that she’d fucked up, she’d let him down, she’d been too much, she’d been too little. She knew everything that wasn’t true and she was so sorry for that nothingness.

Because to her, in that moment, it was real.

And she would beg, through her tears, please. Please no. I’m sorry, whatever I’ve done, everything I’ve done please let me change it. Let me make it up to you- Saguru you’re the best, and one of the only good things in my life, please, please, please, I need you, don’t do this. I can change. I can be anything. Please please please.

He couldn’t know that when he pulled his hand out of both of hers there was a part of her which did not only break, but ceased to exist. It was torn away from her, out of her heart, and off of her soul.

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I’ve broken up with her

I’ve broken up with her

I’ve broken up with her