“Kaito… this is… difficult for me to say. I know that you’ve… tried. To be there for me, I mean. But I just can’t do it anymore. I feel like I haven’t slept in months. My mind never stops buzzing. The headache never goes away. I’ve stopped the drinking, the smoking, the late nights, but… the nightmares are worse. Constant.”
A slow, measured breath and then a sigh.
“I don’t expect you to understand what’s going through my head right now… it’s agony. I don’t remember the last time I was able to really relax. Even making love, now, I… the images.. they’re always there, like… shadows clinging to the corners of the room. Faces. Figures. I can feel them touching me. I can hear their whispers. It…. I… I just need to sleep… I just need to rest a little while. When you get back from your trip I’m sure I’ll be fine… just don’t.. worry too much. It just hurts. Hurts hurts hurts. I love you… mon cher corbeau…. I’m just… so tired.”