Monthly Archives: May 2015

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-glomps Gab- How you been?

I decided to answer this publicly because I have been keeping a lot of things under wraps lately. *HUGS first, though!* 

Things have been crazy stressful. I think I’ve been doing better than I have been, but it has not been without great effort. I’ve always struggled with depression, but things came to a head last summer as the past ten years all caught up to me and I more or less had a series of nervous breakdowns and ended up losing my job as a result… which sucked since we were already facing financial ruin.

Six months later, I finally have a new job, but now I’m gone from the house for ~12 hours a day, and my hubby is on the job market again, too. So we’re still so, so, so broke (like months behind on rent & car payment, with our phones off, checks bouncing, overdraft fees), and now busier than ever… so the house is a mess… AND the person who owns this house is coming next month to visit and may or may not evict us then. Uh. Yeah. One thing is for sure, as soon as we can afford it, we’re filing for bankruptcy.

Did you know that you can be too broke to file for bankruptcy? 

At least the medication seems to be helping with the anxiety and having to get up so early and run around for work has helped with the insomnia. There’s ever-looming, heavy guilt from being so far behind with replies and commissions and things, but I have to keep reminding myself that at least I am pushing through suicidal thoughts and barely keeping my head above water. 

This is why I haven’t been online lately, though.  

Uhhhh… so let’s see, to recap… depression, financial worries, may or may not be homeless soon (or moving?), guilt, stress… but new job that is fun and fulfilling even though it takes up a LOT of time? I get health insurance starting next month, though. Which is amazing because I haven’t had it in two years… even though I need to be getting my blood tested every 6 months or so because of that whole cancer thing. 

IDK

I just need to be patient. And keep going. And hopefully things will work out. 

For now, though, I should get to bed! 

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The Signs Depressed

zodiacgeek:

Capricorn: Capricorn will isolate themselves and get super defensive. They might even be in denial that anything is wrong until they hit rock bottom. Capricorn is prone to depression.

Aquarius: Aquarius will be very short with everyone and they will randomly snap at loved ones for no apparent reason.

Pisces: Pisces will sometimes go into a complete delusional state. Anyone who disagrees with them just “doesn’t understand.”

Aries:Aries will get aggressive and will snap pretty much unprovoked. Aries will want to be around people, but people wont want to be around them.

Taurus: Taurus will project their depression into others and try to take care of them.

Gemini: Gemini will just try to stay busy until it passes.

Cancer: Cancer never underestimates the importance of comfort food, a good cry, and the support of friends and family.

Leo: Leo will have a pity party. Maybe literally. They’ll just throw a big party to cheer themselves up.

Virgo: Virgo will convince themselves that their feelings are irrational and try not to think about it too much.

Libra: Libra will try to be around people as much as they can and get out their house. A change of scenery or a beautiful experience is usually the solution for Libras.

Scorpio: Scorpio will purposely immerse themselves in their negativity until it destroys them, so that they can learn from the experience and return stronger.

Sagittarius: Sag will never tell you they are upset. They will find little ways to cheer up, and they wont dwell on sadness for long.

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HI HAKUBERT

“That’s quite the name that you’ve come up with for me, James… or should I say… Kaitou Ki…c.. l? Kickle? Kaitou Kickle. Odd. I can see what you’re going for, which I must applaud given that Kaitou KID’s name originated from the misreading of 1412, so it’s apt, but… Kickle is fairly amusing…”

“I’mma KICKLE YOUR ASS RIGHT OUT OF HERE, KID!”

“Conan-kun, that’s not really KID; don’t be fooled, it’s just his icon…”