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gabapple: HAPPY CONAN SUNDAY (it’s still Sunday in the pacific time zone shut up) … have the Gosho Boys as Damekko Doubutsu-esque characters. ((Not back, just reblogging the mun’s art because it may be relevant to your interests! :)))
Yeeesssss!!!~~~ Debates laying lots of torture on him >:D Hakuba’s gonna be screaming from the grave xD
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I’ve seen like… one or two episodes of Yugioh. Man it was weird.
As for tumblr, well… There is a lot of drama surrounding my interactions here, and I’ve been reluctant to say much on the subject. Sufficient to say that the number of unanswered asks, unreplied-to drafts, and loose threads aren’t great for my stress levels… but there were problems beside.
Real life wise, there’s financial trouble like problems with taxes and people turning on the spigot outside of our house while we were at work costing us $350 in utilities for some reason…?? And my oldest brother was diagnosed with cancer and there are problems at work and my own health isn’t super fantastic…
And I mean, there’s all of that and the guilt and the stress and it’s so much so that I don’t even log onto skype most of the time because I can’t concentrate and accomplish things… so I’m trying REALLY HARD to just finish my novel so I feel worth while as a human being again, at least I hope? But I’m so tired from the commute and work and constant obligations that most of what I’ve been doing has just been cleaning my house and trying to learn how to relax… which is surprisingly difficult!
Though I really miss RPing. I do. And I miss you guys. And Hakuba still talks to me all the time in my head, I just…
It was getting to the point where I was convinced that everyone here hated me and wanted me gone, eager to replace and forget about me. And that’s probably just totally insane? And not healthy.
So a break and an attempt to accomplish some personal goals and work through some things. I’m trying, I really, really am…
But er, yeah…
tl;dr
I log on and see that people have “moved on” and that my drafts/inbox are still full and start freaking out all over again.
Bad bad bad…
“…. … … … . .. …. … …. .. ….”
“Dude, are you okay?”
“… .. … … … …. ….. … ..!”
“Uh… yeah that’s kind of messed up. I’ll do what I can, man, but you’re going have to be willing to let go of the past.”
“… … .. .. …. … … … … …?”
“No, it’s okay. I think I know what to do. You’re just gonna have to come hang out with me for a bit. I’ve got some friends who can help you. Don’t worry, I’m a professional!”
“… … …”
((Alas, no… I’ve still got things to take care of, and about every time I log into this account I get a terrible anxiety attack. It’s a mess. But I miss you guys, and I miss playing Hakuba. Hopefully we’ll come back soon, whatever that means.))
we do miss you lots hun ^^
Thank you <3
Still not sure… maybe when my book is done? I have a lot of personal stuff to work through, and I’m pretty burnt out on most everything.
(Sorry, no… still on hiatus. Thank you, though. <3)
SO instead of writing tonight, I made a finally made a time lapse video from one of my livestreams a couple of weeks ago. It’s SMUG CONAN! sped up 16x, so it’s only 3 minutes instead of an hour and twenty minutes. 8D
please enjoy~ I have TONS of these raw videos just sitting here, waiting for me to edit and speed up…
also, wow, youtube has a ton of music you can just use on your videos for free. Swanky?
Reblogged here in case any of you were interested.