Thanks to everyone who submitted! It’s all behind a cut because… some of the answers, well… just in case! Repeated questions are replaced with the next unasked question in chronological order.
1. Are looks important in a relationship? They certainly make some aspects easier, I suppose… and physical attraction is, generally, a healthy thing to have. Is it the most important part, though? No… no, I don’t think so.
2. Are relationships ever worth it? I’d like to believe that they are, romantic and otherwise. Just because I haven’t really made one work doesn’t mean that its merit is lost in general.
4. Are you in a relationship? Ah… not at present, no. I am, for better or worse, currently single.
5. Are you in love? …I believe so, yes. Assuming I’ve figured out what ‘love’ really is. It’s painful and wonderful all at the same time, yes?
7. Can you commit to one person? If that person is willing to commit likewise, yes.
8. Describe your crush Ah, crush… I have many crushes. Crushes are easy to get. I simply know too many wonderful people… but I imagine that you’re asking about someone in particular. So I’ll tease you with a list of some of my crushes, their traits, and vague hints at their identities… Who knows; you might be among them.
- Refined. Composed, calculating, poised. Hard-working and diligent. Calming, with superb taste. Dark-haired.
- Brilliant, perceptive, confident, very high standards. Inspiring. Dark-haired.
- Wild. Bursting with conviction. Overly confident. Obnoxious. Generous, loyal, dedicated. Dark-haired. (I’m noticing a trend, here.)
- Sweet. Sincere. Enchanting, observant, witty, adorable. Freckled. Sunny. Encouraging. Dark-haired… huh.
- Brooding. Mysterious, controlled, measured. Cautious. Dark-haired.
…I suppose I have a thing for dark hair. Who knew? Is this why I’ve been so reluctant to leave Japan? Oh ho. That was a bit of a racist comment; my apologies.
9. Describe your perfect mate Kind, thoughtful, curious, adventurous. Someone who is interested in what I like because I like it, not necessarily because they share it. Someone who is willing to be different from me, too, and content with that. Needs to be willing to share their life. I want to be someone’s partner, not their perfectly preserved china doll in a cabinet. Let me help with your burdens, and help me with mine. Let’s get hurt together, and patch each other up. I want to be well-loved and scuffed around the edges, and I need them to be the same. Enjoying the simple things in life. The subtle. The tiny moments in life that make it worth living… and I want to talk about it. Also, preferred if they love animals. And children. But of course I know that things don’t have to be perfect to be perfect.
12. Do you forgive betrayal? No. At least not easily. By the time I consider something an actual betrayal I tend to detach completely and sever whatever ties I can. It would take a lot of convincing for me to forgive betrayal… and even more for me to let them get close again.
13. Do you get jealous easily? I’d like to say no, but… I know that’s not true. It all depends on how much personal investment I’ve put in to a given person or situation and… how threatened I feel of being replaced, which has happened before.
21. Do you think someone has feelings for you? I suppose that’s possible, yes. I think that’s actually a safe bet…
22. Do you think someone is thinking about you right now? I would be a little surprised if they were, but I suppose it’s not impossible…
27. Has someone ever written a song or poem for you? You know, I don’t think… Actually, no; there was a poem written in my first relationship, three or four years ago? It was short and I don’t actually remember the lines (unfortunate), but I do remember the way his mouth moved when he read it to me. How shy he was. The color of his freckled cheeks, heated with embarrassment. He couldn’t even look at me. It was the most amazing thing. A beautiful memory that I wish I could forget.
1. Are looks important in a relationship? 3. Are you a virgin? No.
6. Are you single this year? It would seem so.
9. Describe your perfect mate 11. Do you ever want to get married? Yes, yes I do. Very much so. Some day.
10. Do you believe in love at first sight? I believe that people can feel a strong connection with another person rather immediately and that can develop into love, certainly, but love is not quite so… so simple.
32. Have you ever experienced unrequited love? Alas, yes.
33. Have you ever had sex with a man? Yes.
34. Have you ever had sex with a woman? Yes.
36. Have you ever liked one of your best friends? Yes… and it’s torture.
38. Have you ever liked someone you didn’t expect to? Yes to this as well. More torture.
39. Have you ever wanted someone you couldn’t have? Yes, yes, and yes. God yes. Never-ending torture of the most frustrating sort.
42. How long can you just kiss until your hands start to wander? Haha- that’s a very good question! I have to confess that unless I am very carefully concentrating on doing otherwise, I have a difficult time resisting the urge to… move things forward after fifteen minutes or so. And my hands, well… there’s just so much sensory information that I can gather and I’m a very curious person, you have to understand….
48. If the person you like says they like someone else, what would you say? I apologize for making things awkward for them and wish them the best of luck. No hard feelings… unless they’ve been leading me on, but I do hope that I’d be more observant than to be taken in like that. A person can’t really help who they become attracted to, really, and, ah… I’m certain there’d be reasons behind it… after all, I’m not exactly the most… worthy choice…
51. Is there a boy/girl who you would do absolutely everything for? Yes. Yes, I do believe so, given the right circumstances…
55. Share a relationship story.Once, I met a boy in Paris during one of my summer holidays and I tried an experiment: for the duration of our relationship (twenty-one days), I was to do nothing more than kiss and cuddle. It was difficult. I was almost fifteen years old, and still working through the emotional trauma of the previous year. I don’t think that I would have been able to hold to my promise to Baaya of not trying to take my own life again were it not for this boy… a simple, pure relationship, exploring the streets of Paris. Pointing out everything. Sharing histories, trivia, experiences. When I ended it, I told him not to look for me, that we should leave what was perfect where it needed to be- in Paris. I’ve looked for him since, off and on, but haven’t seen him… Sometimes I wonder if it had been the right decision.
…but as much as I wonder and dream, sometimes, I know that I wouldn’t have been good for him, anyway.
58. What are five ways to win your heart?
- Literary references
- Listening/paying attention
- Straight forwardness (particularly in appropriate settings, ie private, as I do get flustered easily)
- Passion (for whatever it is that you do, even stamp collecting)
- Animals. A cute, cuddly creature is typically an excellent way to disarm me very quickly.
62. What is the sexiest thing someone could ever do for/to you? Surprise affection in a private setting… ah, I… well, it might be nice to have someone take their time with me… talking, touching, checking, laughing, ah… but I suppose that’s not the sexy sort of thing that you’re looking for, is it? It’s difficult to quantify ‘sexiest thing ever’, really; there are too many moods and options and…
Ah, I’ll just suggest that someone use the secret weapon… Whisper my name in a very particular way into my ear in public, while wearing a straight face, as if you were just speaking about something else, and then follow up on it later~
65. What is your favourite foreplay routine? This is a rather personal question, isn’t it? Ah, I suppose, though… my strategy is always to catch my partner off guard; disarm them by making them laugh, surprising them with something that gets them distracted, in the mood… it’s all about preparing them emotionally before setting to work on exploring and experimenting. The goal is to make them feel as though they’re the only one in the whole world and their pleasure is the most important thing. Lots of touching. Lots of kissing. Finding exactly what does it for them, then building up the momentum and pressure. Match the pacing and style to whatever they seem to prefer, then drive them to the brink… By then, it’s a matter of finishing and, well… … that’s really as specific as I’m willing to be. I’m already fairly embarrassed that I’ve said as much as I have.
67. What is your idea of the perfect date? Who’s the one in charge? I honestly wouldn’t mind being on the ‘being taken on’ end of things for once… But, ah, back to the question. I rather enjoy dates that involve doing some kind of activity that requires outside influence (not outdoors, necessarily, but something to add stimulus – such as a movie, a meal, window shopping, actual shopping, etc.) so that there can be ongoing discussion and commentary… I suppose I rather enjoy talking with those I’m comfortable with.
What I’m getting at, I mean, is doing something together that can be used as a springboard for conversation and thus providing opportunity to learn more about each other within context of a romantic relationship (potential or established). Specifically… ah, going out with the… intent to learn and explore and discover; figuring yourself out with their assistance, prompting more questions and information from them… It’s a learning opportunity; a scientific experiment… willingly… participating… … yes.
69. What turns you off? Controlling possessiveness. Demeaning attitudes. Treating me as if I’m some sort of porcelain figure. And, oh – doing anything without express permission. I cannot stress this enough.
70. What turns you on? Attentiveness. Whispers right against the back of my ear. Lower-lip tugs. Seemingly innocent touches to the backs of elbows. Being let know that I’m desired.
71. What was your kinkiest wet dream? A somewhat modified and shortened version of this… I will not elaborate; it’s far too embarrassing.
72. What words do you like to hear during sex? Positive indicators of all sorts are welcomed; I like to know that I’m on the right path. Also, ah… … … I may or may not really enjoy hearing my (sur)name in various… ways… … ahem.
73. What’s something sweet you’d like someone to do for you? I’d love… if someone would wait up with me. Talk to me, keep me distracted until I fell asleep… and then curled up next to me and stayed until morning, at least… longer if they really liked me. It might be nice to share my bed with someone who genuinely cares for me. We could have breakfast. Talk about the newspaper. Go shopping. Something. It sounds… it sounds absolutely lovely.
75. What’s the sweetest thing anyone’s ever done for you? I’d say that, ah, this whole ordeal likely qualifies… Honestly, breaking into my room at night, leaving me gifts and kind little notes? I’m still amazed and confused that it happened… I really don’t deserve such kind treatment.
79. When was the last time you felt jealous? Why? I’ll confess that I’m jealous all of the time… and it’s ridiculous and shameful and a horrible habit that I need to break out of.
81. Who are five people you find attractive?
- Kuroba Kaito
- Kudou Shinichi
- Himura Emi (I’ll count Eiji here as well)
- Ootori Kyoya
- Kirigiri Kyouko
8. Describe your crush 14. Do you have a crush on anyone? Yes… several wonderful people, all of whom I have described in an earlier section.
10. Do you believe in love at first sight? 15. Do you have any piercings? No. And while I’m not opposed piercings on others (so long as they look tasteful enough), I do not have any interest in getting any, myself.
17. Do you like kissing in public? Not so much, no. A little peck on the cheek or lips is fine, I suppose, but I prefer for intimacy of most kinds to be conducted in private.
20. Do you shower every day? Barring unusual circumstances, yes.
21. Do you think someone has feelings for you? 23. Do you think you can last in a relationship for 6 months and not cheat? Yes. When in relationships, I have always been very committed… Granted, the three or so relationships I’ve been in only lasted about a month each, give or take a week, and… … well, that’s rather pitiful for all of my talk of romance, isn’t it?
38. Have you ever liked someone you didn’t expect to? 40. Have you ever written a song or poem for someone? Several, yes. They’ve been generally well-received, as far as I can tell, but have not really… yielded in any sort of quantifiable result.
39. Have you ever wanted someone you couldn’t have? 41. Have you had sex so far this year? Yes.